Anathema

Ugh...
My grad school director...is a total whiny bitch. I mean, I know he's full of himself but, Jesus, he sends out this letter to all the students in the program about how we have so little funding, and how he's doing his damndest to get funds and all the things he's done for us, and how our U. isn't at all prestigious but dammit, we can still be proud of it, and then mentions that when we get in guest speakers, we should see the opportunity to meet with them as "part optional, part civic duty."

WTF? Seriously, WTF? Never mind all the shit work he makes us do in his one class, and how busy all of us are, but now he wants us to play nice whenever he gets in a writer from Mexico just because wow! it's a writer who's gonna be able to add another speaking credit to his/her list? Dude, I don't even fuckin' speak Spanish, how the hell would I get anything from listening to a lecture in Spanish?

And then, just as icing on the cake, he tells us that life out there is hard for us humanities types since all the jobs like editors of magazines and such, teaching positions and other writing spots out there are fought for competitively, but that this shouldn't depress us, no! It should "strengthen our resolve." Fuck his resolve shit, maybe we aren't gonna try for those jobs everyone's competing for. Maybe we'll be innovative, do that whole "think outside the box" thing people love to throw around, and find work that doesn't fall within the narrow confines of literary work.

I seriously can't wait to finish this damn program. I love about three of the professors in it, but the rest of them I barely know and one of them I totally can't stand now. And the students there...one of them is seriously getting on everyone's nerves, talking about how we should avoid writing pop fiction 'cause we're in it to write literature and serious shit. Y'know, 'cause we certainly can't enjoy writing pop fic or young adult stuff. We would just love to have our work published by a small university press in a 1000 book run and that be that.

That's it. I'm writing young adult novels. I'm doing it now in fanfic, and I enjoy it way more than I do the serious shit I've been doing here. I'm gonna have fun, I'm gonna write what I like, and when I die, no matter how bad I've been I know I'll leave behind something for people to enjoy. :) KC

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